In the beginning...

Let me introduce myself... You can call me Eden. I'm  single mother of a very challenging 15 yr old boy. I have a full-time job as well as being a full-time student. I own my home. My car is paid for. I'm in great physical shape. So I bet you're wondering why I'm single. Well thats because i have the worst taste in men imagineable. If there is a sob story in a man's life I will shelter him, nurture him, fix him up and get him him ready for marriage...with the next girl he meets. I call it wounded pupp syndrome. I find men that are broken but have potential and it has never worked out in my favor.The thing is that I hate dating. Not so much the dinner and flirting but the small talk, uncomfortableness, the waiting for someone to call, ughh...you can keep it. I much prefer the stable nature of knowing the person deeply and beeing in a lasting loving relationship. In the past I've had a small problem with the lasting portion. The longest relationship I've ever had was with my son's father for 7 years. Even then it was off and on and we never made it to the alter but that was mostly my fault. We were very young when I got pregnant. We had no business being parents let alone being married. So for making the decision to not join 50% of Americans in divorce I am thankful. I still want to get married and have more children but as I get older it seems as though the likelihood of that happening is not so good. Yes I know I'm only 35 and people are getting married way later but lets face it my biological clock is ticking and the chances of me being able to conceive on my own arent so good. So this blog is sort of a story of my journey. It's my therapy and a way for me to revisit past mistakes and learn from them while I search for happiness and the right man to share my life with. I will always be open to constructive criticism and words of wisdom.